2019 Transformation Stories
My grown Inner Child
From pain to manifestation.
It’s about my inner child work. From pain to manifestation.
When I first started adornment stories I was abruptly set free/fired from a well-paying job at the beginning of May and my world as I knew it was uprooted, this forced me to be brave, fearless and trust God, which is to trust myself. I didn’t know it then I was simply drawn to the concept but the veil for me represents the past and the present, the spirit world and the ancestors, my community. As I reflect on the journey I look at the 2019 vision board I created as well as this project and I say to myself “life is a bitch but I am a badder bitch, praise!”
My project documents my journey to loving and learning myself after decades of creating an “acceptable self” for others. I tried and failed to become a person that would be “useful” and loved by friends, family, partners, acquaintances, and even strangers.
I realized that getting to know and love who I really am, and not who I thought people wanted, was the first step in healing. I had to destroy and “burn” the ideal image of who I thought I should be, in order to truly see myself. This year marks the beginning of me living my life authentically, fully accepting myself even if those around me might not.
Season 23,
Ep 1
Overcoming Narcissistic abuse with the use of Honey, Tea, and Tears.
My project is about a Girl with Mommy Issues. Narcissistic Abuse created issues in my being, my relationship and life paths. I’d constantly project the wounds of the inner child to my husband and friends and to this day it affects the bonds we share. When I moved out of the home that housed my traumas birthed was my inner parent that walked down the path of grievance and resilience. Our trauma is not our fault but healing is our responsibility, i know we hear that a lot but it is true. What we don't heal in solitude we will project it on our loved ones. So here’s my projected with the intention to inspire women to allow stillness to speak.
Embracing the Blues
A vital part of transformation is finding meaning in every experience. Life isn’t always crystal clear. Sometimes you feel great, sometimes you feel blue. But I’m learning to embrace both feelings and both experiences because lot of the transformation takes place in the dark. When things are great, we express that. So when shit gets hard, why not express that too. I have cried. I have felt alone. I have failed. Sometimes I feel tired. Sometimes I feel blue. Those parts of me are not less than and do not need to be hidden, because they matter too. This photo series encapsulates different states of feeling blue, validating that, owning that and ultimately, embracing that.